Confident & Wisdom, how?

Caught myself having dilemma before & after doing something not natural for me.
Question myself, why does all this dilemma follows each time i took up that challenge? What is the cause?

Well, it does not take much effort to find out, fear of failing. & obviously it does associate with the view of others as well. & directly, it linked to confident issue.

Read my Pastor book these days & i found the key i have been searching for a long... long time. Or maybe i should say, a key that I not willing to give a try despite knowing that might be the answer.
My Pastor is a very confident & wise man, all these while, i have been asking how does he get there. Yesterday, the answer just laid before my eyes as i flipped through his book.

-Listening to God & journaling-

Today even when i open up the book of wisdom, Proverbs, it speak of same thing. Proverbs 1:23. Wisdom is to be seek & therefore seeking the God of wisdom & understand the truth is the key to it. & journaling simply portray the well known phrase "A short pencil is better than long memory".. Learn & remember. 

As for confident, will it not grow as well if you know more about the truth than yesterday? 

But i truly don't believe that we come to God because of what He can offer, but is Him the true purpose. Just that, i am glad to be reminded the importance and the beautiful life that lays before as i walk closely with Him. & a glimpse of hope just spark before me as i'm still striving with my own strength.

Woman in revival, birth from a close relationship with Jesus