Sour Heart?

Well.....I'm kinda...down this few days.....as in like, my heart is burden by a rock or maybe wrap by a layer our sour thingy.....there is something in me that sometimes bring me Sugar but sometimes bring me Bittergourd....and Mix up equals to Sour heart..I guess.....
To me Sour means....wish to take the Sugar part but once I think about the sugar part, the bitter one starts to come in strongly..
In other word, IM STUCK!...Gosh!

Haiz.....I dont know what to say anymore.....thats all about my today post......
I'm confuse and struggling with this Sour Heart...